as soon as
has been a carrot dangled
a plea for patience
for years now
it has been said so many times
as soon as
has become a living, breathing entity to me
assoonas
assoonas i finish this project, i won’t be so busy
assoonas i don’t have to work this much, i can spend more time with you
assoonas we have enough money to pay all the bills, i won’t be so stressed all the time
assoonas assoonas assoonas
when assoonas arrives things will be loving and fun and passionate
the door bell rings and i run breathless to open it
hoping that assoonas is there on the other side
the phone rings, perhaps that’s assoonas calling to say come pick me up at the bus stop
assoonas is an elusive creature

meanwhile
right now
hangs in there
rightnow has been patient
rightnow sits quietly
ignored
hopeful at times
but mostly rightnow feels unneeded
unloved
un-everything
and so rightnow
slips away
little sands in the hourglass
dropping ever faster
i’m careful not to shake the table the hourglass sits on for fear that the sands will run quicker
the dawn breaks and whispers
rightnow is here
waiting
hoping
will you ignore it again?
how long before rightnow becomes but a memory
a chance lost
pushed aside

assoonas rightnow arrives
he may find
assoonas is too late

rightnow slipped away
unnoticed
while he was waiting
for assoonas