i’ve no good news
another dozen jobs applied for
my one interviewed scheduled was canceled
and
the judge missed his appointment with pc
so
another date is set for next monday
the limbo is killing me

i’m always looking for signs to tell me i’m headed in the right or wrong direction
and right now?
i’m trying to close my eyes
because the signs point to a place of no-return

i’m wrap my arms ’round myself tight
close my eyes
shallow breaths
silently beg the future to come find me
rescue me
a job to occupy me would do wonders
something to quiet my heart
let me focus on my mind and hands a bit more
release the love for the ghost in my heart
tears for a man who no longer exists
wasted tears and time
i know i know i know