no word from that company i had hoped to hear from last week
i hate places that say they will contact you
and then don’t
left me pacing back and forth in my apartment for a while on friday
until i left to go spend some time with some friends
needed to get the hell outta my head

C will be getting married this saturday
there’s talk of renting an RV to drive several of us up to the wedding
and i’m hoping that’s the way it rolls out
we shall see

the limbo portions of my life
well
they’re still in limbo
pc has yet to meet with the judge to sign the papers
and
i’ve yet to find a job
and as much as i ache for those two things to be put into place
there’s not much i can do besides what i’ve been doing to make it happen
feels like my life is still a bit
on hold
like i’m not truly free yet

my heart feels better for the most part
it is easier to forget when there is time and distance between us
i am a woman who tends to hang onto the little tiny crumbs of love
instead of demanding the entire fucking serving
i have to keep reminding myself of how love starved he left me
but
i don’t have to remind myself that much anymore

can you believe next week will be three months since i left?

three months and still in limbo
what the hell is that all about?
where’s the lesson there?
patience?
the hell with patience
anyhow…

i had another interview this past friday
a call back from one of the interviews the week before
this job is quite a distance away
i’m hoping something closer comes through instead
i also took the state exam to be included on their hiring list
despite a score of 90%, i’m way the hell down on that list
grrr

other happenings?
my youngest is officially a cheerleader
(which also means mom is officially even more broke than before)
my oldest is awesome at crafty things
and i hung a screen door on my apartment to take advantage of the sweet, soft breezy mornings and evenings we are having
(of course, i couldn’t get it to quite work with the door jam so it looks a bit funky but whatever, it works for me)

and
life goes on