i am
like a petulant child
spoiled
sometimes

the employer
that resides 60 miles away
one way
has offered me a position
of course, i have to pass a fingerprint and a tb test first
should be no issues there
but
i’m still holding out
i have an interview on monday morning
with the place i REALLY want to work for
i’m hoping that the two required tests for the other place will buy me just the right amount of time
i’d love to be able to say
“thanks but no thanks”
but
beggars can’t be choosers right?
fuck that
i wanna be choosey

C is gearing up
this saturday she’ll be
well
adding on to her last name
i’ll be driving up saturday morning
preferring to skip the friday evening festivities
so that i can watch my youngest cheer at her high school game for the first time
and then i’ll join C
and celebrate her marriage
should be a weekend of smiles and happy tears
i’m ready for it

today
is the perfect kind of california day
it’s the kind of day that makes a person fall in love with this state
clear blue skies
soft breezes
comfortable temperatures
and since my free-time is coming to a close
thankfully
i’m gonna go love up on california a bit
soak her into my soul
celebrate my homecoming
finally