the wedding was stunning
(see photo above)
C looked beautiful
her face probably hurts today from smiling so much
i’m so happy i was able to be there

my baby cheered her heart out friday night
and
for a girl who has only been a cheerleader for about 10 days?
i think she did fabulous
i don’t believe i’m being biased when i say that
~smile~

when it rains, it pours, right?
tomorrow morning i have an interview
tuesday i have another clerical assessment test for a different job
friday i have an interview for yet another position
monday and friday’s interviews are in the town i would prefer to work in
so i’m crossing my fingers and toes
which is really hard for me because i have short, stubby toes
amazing what a difference it has made
just adding one thing to my cover letter

i did well at the wedding
but i must admit to getting sad at one point
listening to C’s new husband proudly announce anywhere and everywhere
“this is my WIFE”
took me back to a time…
well
when things were happy with pc
i don’t miss the terrible side of him
i do miss him sometimes though
i miss his smell
and the way his skin felt beneath my fingertips
i miss hearing his even breathing beside me at night
today has been a tough day
my body aches to be held for just a bit
it’s a different kind of ache these days though
at least, there’s no one here who coulda/shoulda be holding me
just me
sometimes the wishes get the best of me
today was one of those days

the good thing is
it’s nearly time for bed
and
tomorrow will be a new day
new possibilities waiting outside my door
i only have to open it