Simply Leen

it feels like it was just yesterday when i wrote my last post
the days are flying by
filled with too much non-fun stuff
but school is going well
the research paper that has had me up at night?
i received my graded rough draft back
and the comments were that it is an a+ paper that is 90-95% complete already
which was a huge relief
i’ve about one more month left for this semester
and too many semesters ahead of me to count at this point
but proud of my progress so far

i don’t have much to write
which is probably why i never come here to bore you
my heater is fixed
my house is clean and my laundry is done
that’s what i’ve accomplished recently
my comforter gets softer with each wash
i love that

hmmmmmm
what else?

i’m a bit off kilter
i remember back to days when my waking hours were nightmare and my sleeping hours were bliss
seems i’ve switched things around
i’ve been plagued over the past few weeks with constant dreams of pc
gone are the dreams of the man with the hands i looked for
pc has been haunting me
and i find myself waking with heartache in my throat
feeling much unloved
washing my face with cold water to ward away the blues that swirl around afterwards
the daylight welcomes me
my days are full
and mainly uninteresting
homework, housework, whatever
i was so looking forward to getting home last night to cuddle with my dogs in the cold fall evening
dreading the nightfall and the approach of the sandman
however
this too shall pass

and for now
i’m actively wishing for the changes i daydream of…
working to pay off bills
keeping my eyes open to possibilities
more importantly, keeping my heart open
i believe it will happen