Simply Leen

the current is strong from what i’ve heard
it’ll whisk you down the stream
but i never seem to have the time
so my toes just touch the water
my toes just touch the water

that spoiled sun up over there
it always has to have it’s way
and i know that the river’s there to shelter me
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water
my toes just touched the water

online date #2 was a fail
not nearly as terrible as online date #1
(tiny hands? – remember?)
this guy was very handsome to look at
if you could see him through the cloud of smoke he brought into the restaurant with him after putting out his cig
slightly obnoxious but obviously very smart
weird voice and laugh
and i didn’t like the silent stare he gave to the waitresses each time one came over to the table
(his effort to be funny fell very short when he did that)
he did tell me a few funny stories
one story of sending a business letter to a contractor utilizing “lame man’s” terms (in place of layman’s)
another of sending multiple communications to another contractor – repeatedly referring to the man by the name of brain instead of brian
very funny indeed!
so, it was with a bit of sadness that i realized… yeah, he’s not for me
and i even tried to get past the smoke and the weirdness to see if i could roll around with him in bed a few times
and … not so much … just can’t do it
so…
back to the drawing board

what i’m discovering mostly
is that many of these men do not possess the ability to write more than one sentence at a time
not that they’re not intelligent
(i think)
but that writing is not in their asset column
and that’s a toughey for me
trying to get myself past that wall
and give them a chance

and also to get myself past the pout of “i really want HIM” when he obviously doesn’t want me
feels sort of like settling
and that?
i’m not okay with
never, ever again with the settling thing…
nuh uh

i had a few moments of
anger
and sadness
on my way home from this od2
at x2
for turning into such a turd
i found myself reflecting back on meeting him
blind date
instant click
instant lust
instant like
nearly instant love
and it’s hard to not expect or desire the same thing
only with a different end result
damn him anyhow…

my car is in the shop
blown tire on the way to concert #2 last week
left me by the side of a very busy highway
thank god for my automotive club membership

this weekend will be spent at the beach
hopefully drinking my weight in alcohol
and coming home slightly pink from the sun
with a smile that you’ll have to pry off my face
a much needed respite

again with the onward business, okay?
k

it’s wednesday evening here in my corner of the world
quiet
peaceful
5 miles walked again today
the scale doesn’t agree but whatever

the truth is 45 is quickly approaching
and while part of me is perfectly okay with it
there are other parts of me that…
well…
are having problems i suppose
i can see the years and the tears on my face these days
while others tell me i never age
i can see the age

truth is
i haven’t felt sexy in a really, really long time
probably not since i made the trek out to OK
of course, that sexy feeling lasted just a few short months

and anyhow
seems some of my sweet friends
one in particular
has been feeling equally unsexy
and my mind wandered back
back to the days of HNT
without showing much of anything that would be considered “sexy”
i can say without a doubt i sure felt sexy
and perhaps it’s the lighting, or the angle, or the… whatever
but there is something to be said about taking a photo of myself
in an effort to find the sexy
that seems to draw it out

so without further noise…
the return of my hnt

lips

summer concert on monday evening was fantastic
lawn seats turned into row 13 seats
and a wonderful experience was had by all

another concert is on the horizon for friday
and a weekend at the beach is set for a few weeks away

life is grand

online dating continues to be…
interesting
the free sites are okay to me
i’ve a few “hits” here and there
one in particular that… well, we shall see where it leads
one i was very interested in has dropped off the face of the earth
or at least dropped off my radar
and part of my issue is that i live a few hours away from any men that i really find attractive
i live in a small town
next to another small town
and there’s just not much to pick from there
so, i’ve scattered my net out further
only to find those that are further have a relatively rich pool where they are at so…
not interested?
yeah, that’s the way it appears
ah well
it’ll happen if it’s supposed to
and in the meantime, i’m having loads of fun right now

and with that…
i need to take my sleepy ass to bed
much love
happy hnt my lovelies